Did you know that when you actually take the time to listen to God- He can speak really loudly? Recently, I felt God asking me NOT to do something (see my previous blog about slowing myself down). Part of me questioned Him for a moment, since the activity was definitely Christ centered, I enjoyed it MUCH in the past and I couldn't really come up with any earthly reason for not doing it....but I listened, and sat out. It has been difficult to watch the activity go on without me. I have said, I feel like the fat kid on the playground...standing on the sidelines, watching all the other kids having fun, doing what I desire to do....
Anyway- Within the past week I have been asked to take on some other Godly tasks that I would NEVER have had time for if I was to had fought God and done what I wanted to do. I find this new activity VERY fulfilling and it gives me a sense of purpose. To top it all off, I have found a way to enhance the activity that I was involved with before with my current activity.
So often, we can not see the big picture in our lives. So often we focus on the here and now and don't look beyond our immediate needs and desires. As I get older, and my walk with Christ becomes stronger, I find that when I look back on how God has laid out my life, He knew exactly what He was doing (despite my resistance at times). The more I tune in to His will for my life, the easier it becomes.
I'm not saying I am without my days of struggle. I fight myself, God and those around me, but as the new FFH song says, "You drive, I'll ride!" I'm learning to appreciate the role of passenger!